To know them

A lyrical piece.

A portrait of my three daughters and I. A special piece I commissioned mixed medium artist Soko Diary to create for me.

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For the past few years a lot of my newer work (prose, poetry and lyrical bodies) has lived and sat static in the frame of a caption via social media, in the notes of my phone, or scribbled on pieces of scrap paper next to my bed. With no immediate plans to press them into the pages of a book (just yet) I am currently moving and archiving some of the pieces that mean most to me, here, in this new place of practice, as a timestamp to some of my most beheld moments capsuled through lyrical language.

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To know them

I have mostly felt out of body 
in large and vast arrays 
when I think of me
as mother. 

I’m yet prepared, still
praying love into all the gaps
often 
because there are so many. 

I’m learning constantly here
how little I know
but how largely the heart can love.   

And I heard once,
that the heart physically expands
when it lives, physically 
on the outside of our body. 

And
It’s 
true. 

And with its little legs
leaping and spinning 
alive & awake
outside us—

I witness
the disposition 
of my very own heart—
with its very own heart

and it is of other worlds. 

And when I break it all down 
It’s knowing them 
that my heart aches for

I really just hope
to be the mum they need
and not in a perfect way
but in a utterly 
willing way

To know them.

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Below is a recent lyrical piece that might adjoin beautifully to this reading moment if you care for some more —